Write a letter to someone who's no longer here.
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Write a letter to someone who's no longer here.
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Posted 2024-12-24 12:30:22 (edited)
This thread is thoughtfully dedicated to those who wish to send a letter to their past selves, departed loved ones, cherished friends, places, pets, or things that are no longer. It is for therapeutic purposes that this thread was created, so people could have a sense of closure and peace within themselves. Especially in the case that writing a letter is not possible. I respond to every letter privately. |
 π·πππππ ΫΆΰ§ #147277 |
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Posted 2024-12-24 19:26:52 (edited)
I'm sitting here on Christmas Eve, as a Pagan. A thing you would have deeply hated. But I hope you know I think of you often, and fondly. I graduated high school.But I couldn't make it to college or the army. There was no way for me to pass basic training. I got hurt when I was 16. I know those 3 facts alone probably have you rolling in your grave. And there is so much more you've missed. Everyone says I should hate you just based on your last words to me, but I can't bring myself to hate you. All I can think of is would you accept me? Would you look at me and see me as your son? Or would you turn your back on me for not being the perfect daughter? The older I get the more I realize how many red flags I missed. I spent years blaming myself. I spent years hating myself. I still love you, even with all the things that have come to light, even after all the realizations. I'm 29 now... I survived longer than you thought I would. It's been 17 years since that night. I miss you and I miss your music. But I'm not sure what I think of you. So much was hidden from me, and I realize now how sheltered I was living with you. It is no thanks to you that I am who I am. But it is thanks to you that I understand death and anger. Those are things a child should never learn first. I am torn between hurt and anger. Your last words and your last night will forever haunt me, and have shaped a very specific fear into my life. I love you, but I never want to be like you. That is a thought that drives every decision I make. And a fear I never want to realize. I cry as I write any little note that I wish I could send you. And I would give anything to go back to that night and try to fix things. Signed- Your Unwanted Trans Son. (I didn't want to be first, but I was already working on something like this. I wanna tell everyone who went through anything like this. Do not let it turn you into a person you don't want to be. Feel free to message with clarifying questions, and just know that you are loved, even if your own blood doesn't accept you. There's always someone who will help you through life.) |
ππ₯DemonOfMoonsπ #141697 |
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Posted 2024-12-24 20:39:49
Well, Congratulations. You've Officially Become The Main Character In My Trauma Chronicles. I Hope You're Proud Because, Thanks To You, I've Got More Diagnoses Than A Soap Opera Character And Enough Emotional Baggage To Fill A Cargo Ship. PTSD? Check. Severe Depression? Double Check. Autism? Didn't Even Know That Was In The Cards, But Surprise! You've Managed To Turn My Brain Into A Chaotic Bingo Card Of Mental Health Conditions. I'd Like To Say I Miss You, But Honestly? I'm Too Busy Dissociating And Forgetting What Day It Is. You've Left Me With Insomnia So Bad That My Sleep Schedule Is Basically A Vague Suggestion. Thanks To You, I Can't Even Enjoy A Cup Of Coffee Without Wondering If It'll Trigger My Anxiety Or Make Me Time-Travel Back To A Memory I Didn't Ask For. Still, Here I Am Writing This Letter, Trying To Make Sense Of It All. I Could Be A AWESOME PERSON (And Let's Be Real, I Am), But I'm Also Kind Of Impressed. It Takes Talent To Wreck Someone's Life This Thoroughly. If There's A Guinness World Record For Emotional Sabotage, You're A Shoo-In. But You Know What? Despite The Circus You Left Me With, I'm Still Here. I'm A Walking Disaster, Sure, But I'm Also A Survivor. And While I Absolutely Forgive You (Don't Mix Up Forgive With Forget  ) I Can Promise You This: I'm Gonna Keep Living Out Of Spite, Laughing At The Chaos, And Maybe Even Thriving Just To Annoy The Ghost Of You That Still Haunts Me.So THANK YOU For The Trauma, And The Absolutely Unhinged Sense Of Humor I've Developed As A Coping Mechanism. You May Have Broken Me, But Jokes On YouβI'm Unbreakable. Just A Little Cracked. Sincerely, FIGMENT THE FOOL THERAPY DAWGOOOS  |
 FigmΙnt TΚΙ π±πππ #122059 |
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Posted 2024-12-25 01:52:19
I just wanted to say how much i miss you its been two years but it feels like yesterday when you left us. As much as it hurts i know in my heart your in a better place. Yohr free of pain now and get to be with your lost lived ones again. I wrote this on your two year anniversary of passing. Not a day gose bye where i don't think about you. Our chats and the laughter we shared. The times we baked or cooked together. I miss you so much With love your granddaughter |
Roseblade #147641 |
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Posted 2024-12-25 02:50:45 (edited)
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 Mustang π #3314 |
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Posted 1 week ago (edited)
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Angelic Crystal Heart #146224 |