I've managed to cure my depression!

I've managed to cure my depression!
Posted 2022-05-03 20:24:18 (edited) #738759 Note that for several years I haven't been such an optimist as I've been for a few days now. The smile I have is finally real! It was 1am. I'd tried to sleep for 2 hours unsuccessfully, even though the previous night I hadn't slept, I took a sleep in the morning for 4 or 5 hours. But it's 1am and I don't feel sleepy at all even though I had felt sleepy prior. Something made me happy but I didn't know what. I was in pajamas but I felt I wanted to drink (I'm a teetotaler, only non-alcoholic stuff). Without taking off the pajamas, I put some clothes and went out to buy something to drink. There was a bar close by where mango juices were being sold even though for expensive prices, I went there as I thought it was open that night. A few minutes of walk - it was closed. But I didn't give up. I didn't know where I could buy something to drink at that time but I kept strolling around the town - until I found a petrol station. I bought an aloe drink. I didn't know what next, I considered going to my brother to tell him how much I loved him but I didn't want to wake him up. I kept wondering what made me so unreasonably happy, like had I taken antidepressants before? But I don't take pills. What had I eaten that day that made me so happy? So 2 hours before, I prayed the rosary for success in my bachelor diploma. I had written a 50-page essay, where over 90% of work was in the past 2 weeks as the deadline is really, really soon. And 2 weeks before, I didn't believe I could even finish it as I hadn't finished for 2 years. My depression outweighed my motivation and I felt no purpose in life and as a game addict I just kept playing games whenever I thought about writing the diploma. I felt guilty as my parents paid for my education only so I could play games over and over again. Since I graduated from high school, I felt I did no progress in my life as I never liked to learn outside lessons or lectures and kept failing exams. I used to have the worst thoughts about myself and the purpose of life. Completing the bachelor diploma by myself made me think the money parents donated didn't go to waste after all. I was not sure if I'd pass diploma exams, I sent my essay to the supervisor but didn't have an answer yet, especially that the supervisor asked me to send it a month prior the deadline but I sent it less than a week prior but I felt happy just by the fact I honestly finished it. Many would suggest medicine or psychologist for depression. I can't prove them wrong because I didn't test them much enough but I would insist that getting out of the comfort zone and doing what you feel would progress in your life is the best cure for depression. It's natural and I doubt it's temporary as pills or therapy.	Dżanek #24018

Posted 2022-05-03 20:24:18 (edited)

#738759

Note that for several years I haven't been such an optimist as I've been for a few days now. The smile I have is finally real!

It was 1am. I'd tried to sleep for 2 hours unsuccessfully, even though the previous night I hadn't slept, I took a sleep in the morning for 4 or 5 hours. But it's 1am and I don't feel sleepy at all even though I had felt sleepy prior. Something made me happy but I didn't know what. I was in pajamas but I felt I wanted to drink (I'm a teetotaler, only non-alcoholic stuff). Without taking off the pajamas, I put some clothes and went out to buy something to drink. There was a bar close by where mango juices were being sold even though for expensive prices, I went there as I thought it was open that night. A few minutes of walk - it was closed. But I didn't give up. I didn't know where I could buy something to drink at that time but I kept strolling around the town - until I found a petrol station. I bought an aloe drink. I didn't know what next, I considered going to my brother to tell him how much I loved him but I didn't want to wake him up. I kept wondering what made me so unreasonably happy, like had I taken antidepressants before? But I don't take pills. What had I eaten that day that made me so happy?

So 2 hours before, I prayed the rosary for success in my bachelor diploma. I had written a 50-page essay, where over 90% of work was in the past 2 weeks as the deadline is really, really soon. And 2 weeks before, I didn't believe I could even finish it as I hadn't finished for 2 years. My depression outweighed my motivation and I felt no purpose in life and as a game addict I just kept playing games whenever I thought about writing the diploma. I felt guilty as my parents paid for my education only so I could play games over and over again. Since I graduated from high school, I felt I did no progress in my life as I never liked to learn outside lessons or lectures and kept failing exams. I used to have the worst thoughts about myself and the purpose of life.

Completing the bachelor diploma by myself made me think the money parents donated didn't go to waste after all. I was not sure if I'd pass diploma exams, I sent my essay to the supervisor but didn't have an answer yet, especially that the supervisor asked me to send it a month prior the deadline but I sent it less than a week prior but I felt happy just by the fact I honestly finished it.

Many would suggest medicine or psychologist for depression. I can't prove them wrong because I didn't test them much enough but I would insist that getting out of the comfort zone and doing what you feel would progress in your life is the best cure for depression. It's natural and I doubt it's temporary as pills or therapy.

Dżanek
#24018

Posted 2022-05-12 03:57:23

#744549

I've just got an engineer's degree. I don't know how to feel.

Dżanek
#24018

Posted 2022-05-27 02:22:20

#759559

Hey, congratulations, Dzanek! I whole-heartedly agree; working to improve yourself and getting out of your comfort zone is the biggest step to overcoming what is keeping you down, whatever it is. Pills and medicine along with another person's thoughts could only do so much for you when the power to set yourself on the right path to improvement and better days is a power that is yours alone.

You should be very proud of yourself, as I'm sure everyone else around you that's been supporting you do. I hope you are still doing well, and hope you keep improving!
Again, congratulations for your degree! That's a phenomenal achievement. Now that you have your degree, what do you plan on doing going forward? If you don't mind sharing, of course.

Nҽʅƚԋყҽɳ
#2537

Posted 2022-05-28 02:20:38

#760174

My diploma relied on making a playable card game using Unity engine. The game hasn't been completed yet but at least it was playable. Now, I gotta break another comfort zone to finish the game so I can publish it, this is the only plan I currently have.

Dżanek
#24018

Posted 2022-05-28 13:26:01

#760480

Oh, that's cool! What kind of card game is it?

Nҽʅƚԋყҽɳ
#2537

Posted 2022-05-28 14:09:14 (edited)

#760490

It's a custom game made up by my friend. The deck consists of character cards being variations of one person that represents different professions, cultures, religions or legends. The gameplay related properties of characters contain stats, gender, attacking/defending methods and special abilities. There's two-dimensional field layout where cards can be navigated and interacted between each other. I think that's enough foreshadowing, trying not to get too much into detail for now.

Dżanek
#24018

I've managed to cure my depression!

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