Glucose

Dear Pack,

I'm sitting here, beneath the shade of the old oak, trying to focus, trying to center myself. I know it's been a year since I took the mantle of leadership, but I still feel the weight of it every single day. My paws tremble slightly, and sometimes I catch myself overthinking every decision, second-guessing even the simplest choices. I look out at the pack, and though I know they trust me, I can't help but wonder if they see the doubt in my eyes, the nervousness in my heart. Every decision I make feels like a test, and the pressure to get it right weighs on me more than I let anyone see.

I've spent so many nights lying awake, questioning whether I'm truly capable of guiding us. I know the forest like the back of my paw, I've fought for us, hunted for us, and I've led us through tough times, but still, I can't shake this nagging worry. What if I make the wrong call? What if, one day, I let us down? I'm terrified that my anxiety will cloud my judgment and that my pack will suffer because of it. But then, I look around, and I see all of you, standing strong, united, even in times of uncertainty, and I remember something important: you believe in me.

The truth is, despite my fears, I know that we are a family. Every wolf here, from the youngest to the oldest, supports me in ways I can't always express. You have my back, even when I falter, and that gives me strength when I feel small. I know that, together, we'll face whatever comes our way. Your loyalty is unwavering, and that means more than I can ever put into words. It's not just about me leading; it's about all of us working together, sharing the burden, and knowing that we have each other.

I may not always have the answers, and I may never feel completely at ease in this role, but I want you to know that I'll continue to do my best. I trust in each of you as much as you trust in me. So, even when the anxious thoughts creep in, I'll look to you for guidance, knowing that we're in this together. No matter what happens, I know my pack will be there, and that's the greatest reassurance I could ever ask for.

With gratitude and love,
Glucose