spill your feelings
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Posted 2023-09-04 19:12:17
For a while I've been in love with a guy who's been my best friend for about three years.He's a year or two older than me. He's amazing, handsome, smart, and funny. We have a lot of fun together and he makes me laugh. I want to tell him how I feel, but he always says that he finds dating stupid. It really hurts because I really like him. It also brings back bad memories. About a year before, I dated a guy that dumped me after we dated for a few months and told me he was asexual. But sometimes he says stuff that makes me think he does like me. And other times, not so much. It's been really confusing, so some advice from someone else would be nice. |
🥯Bagel🥯 #127047 |
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Posted 2023-09-05 10:40:25
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 spotpc #9204 |
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Posted 2023-10-31 07:14:12
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 Closed Account #123528 |
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Posted 2023-11-12 17:40:50
All in all, terrible. The school is very poorly run, and I feel it is holding me back from my major. They didn't let me take chem and bio in the same semester because they assumed it would be "too hard" for me. Chemistry is, but biology is nothing to me. It's my passion and something I'd actually have the willpower to work through any struggles in. They at least started a string ensemble after lying to me and others that there was one, and fortunately they will allow minor degrees in music next year. However, they are still practically euthanizing the arts programs in favor of sports. The way classes are set up makes many not even be transferrable if I wanted to move to a better school. I'm stuck here. My mom is paying for a lot so I would owe her so much if I dropped out. They also are just deceptive on their tours, where the school appears to value you individually. Only someone as gullible as me last year could fall for the image of this warm fuzzy happy place where they would help you towards a fulfilling career. No, no, and no. They want your money and that's it. They fill your schedule with useless, quirky electives under some pompous name and ensure you have to complete all their school-exclusive nonsense to accomplish a degree. They totally screwed me over in my first semester. And yet nobody else seems perturbed by anything here. Everyone seems to have it together and be happy and LOVE this school. They also claim 100% of their staff care about your mental health (!?!) which I doubt. In reality, I can't get help here for anything academic or certainly not personal because they will probably get me "suspended indefinitely" as per their blasted handbook, if they suspect anything. All I can say is being pretty much punished for a mental health crisis would definitely worsen mine. I can feel myself getting worse by the day and I'll try to keep it together so they don't kick me out for as long as they please. All this aside, I have a 5-7 page paper with 8 sources due tomorrow I haven't started and don't know how to. So I'll continue to fall apart more and more. I can't be bothered to do anything anymore. I have so much on my shoulders. I have to deal with intensive schoolwork, my personal depression and self hatred, and my mom getting married after it not even crossing our minds since my dad died when I was eight. The latter is good, and I like our stepdad (?). But it's a lot because it feels like an entirely new life. And I hope the years of horrible conflict between me and my mom never come up because I don't want one more person to hate me. |
 ElectroSwing #43082 |
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Posted 2023-11-13 17:18:15 (edited)
And my lead is sick I need help 
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Starstone #129322 |
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Posted 2023-11-25 15:50:52
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Starstone #129322 |
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Posted 2023-12-06 19:44:34
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ElectroSwing #43082 |
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Posted 2024-01-02 23:17:31 (edited)
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Closed Account #123528 |
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Posted 2024-01-21 23:07:34
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Ezra #51426 |
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Posted 2024-05-06 05:08:39
Oh dear, I'm am so sorry. I hope everything works out. I don't know you well, but if you ever need support, I'm here. You got this, and just remember that it always gets better. |
🥯Bagel🥯 #127047 |