Private rp between Shapeshifter the goldwing and shroudfang. (PM both to join) ((rp))
Posted 2024-11-08 14:41:28
The male's story made Zeljka think about her own painful past. She lowered her head a little and closed her eyes for a moment forcing the memories to the furthest corner in her mind in order not to cry. She wasn't going to cry in front of a stranger. Besides, did she really even have tears left anymore? She had cried so much during the past year that she feared that she wasn't able to cry anymore even though she wanted to. "I'm sorry for your loss and it's horrible what has happened to you," Zeljka whispered her voice very faint and soft, but she still didn't move closer to the male. |
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Posted 2024-11-08 14:56:54
He didn't belong anywhere nor had a territory to call his own but felt it was best this way, his past never allowed him to be comfortable in the same place for too long; every fiber of his being was tense and filled with anxiety that he couldn't control. If he hadn't known better Drez would have believed he was born this way: a broken anxiety filled mess who never once smiled in his life. With his head lowered the blond canid sniffed the earth beneath him to ensure he was alone, to convince himself he was safe but his mind would always say otherwise. He learnt to focus on his sense of smell rather then his ears to keep himself grounded; currently he sought the sweet scent of the various flowers and herbs whilst being weary of the world around him. |
ⱫɎØ, ₮ⱧɆ ฿ⱤØ₭Ɇ₦ ₣ØØⱠ #37038 |
Posted 2024-11-08 15:02:47 (edited)
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Shapeshifter the goldwing #129135 |
Posted 2024-11-08 15:42:40
"I...I d-don't k-know y-you..." Zeljka whispered her voice shaky as she took an another step back. She was really tense and both her body and mind wanted nothing more than to run away at lighting speed. She knew that she was able to outrun the most, if she ran at her full speed. That gift she had inherited from her parents. However, something was still holding her back; she was terrified just to bolt away. What if she would anger the other by doing so? What if they would choose to run her down and attack her and drag her to wherever they wanted to take her? "W-why would you want to be around the Angel of Death?" Zeljka asked her eyes wide. She was holding one of her paws up again, but was constantly glancing around to make sure that she wasn't cornered. That was her greatest fear, to be trapped. However, as the female kept backing away, she soon felt that she had hit something and winced softly while worry flashed across her face quickly. She had hit a big rock behind her, there was no way she could keep backing away now. With wide eyes she started at the wolf fearing what might happen next. |
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Posted 2024-11-08 16:19:36
"….damnit…I need to stop these thoughts…" Drez grunted to himself, his voice deep but hushed, a whisper even when speaking to himself. With a firm jerk of the head his sole working eye was scanning the area closely despite the lack of threats. He couldn't help it, the few times his parents heard him speaking it led to another regret, another scar upon his mingled hide. Perhaps the worst part of it was Drez knew they are no longer a threat to him but he still feared making a sound, allowing his voice to be heard. A soft breeze ruffled his damp pelt but even so he kept still and cautious as if fearing they would emerged from the very earth that had swallowed them and come for him. They loved to torment him and more so his ebony thoughts; tears threatened to escaped his eyes but he refused to allow them, what if someone could smell his bloody tears? Such question as unlikely it was, served it's purpose of keeping the tears from falling. |
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Posted 2024-11-08 16:59:53 (edited)
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Shapeshifter the goldwing #129135 |
Posted 2024-11-08 17:15:46
"I... I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry..." Zeljka called after him softly when she saw him walking away. She didn't want to be alone either, oh how she yearned to be with someone, to be close to someone, to feel protected and safe. Sadly, she was too terrified to be around others or even allow them to get close enough to be near her. She was scared and terrified that the past would repeat itself, but at the same time she yearned for company. Zeljka could feel hopelessness taking over her body and she almost felt her heart being torn in pieces again. Her tail slowly uncurled itself from between her legs as she lowered her head in defeat. She had managed to chase yet another canine away from her. Why couldn't she ever do anything right? Defeated, Zeljka turned and took few steps away from the scene before she noticed a bush. It was bare from leaves, but instead the branches were covered in thorns. The bush was also quite big. Crying without any shed tears, Zeljka made her way to the bush before she lowered her body and crawled into the bush curling up as tiny ball as she could. At least the thorns could protect her and she didn't care about the pain that the thorns caused to her body. It didn't matter, nothing did matter. She was a monster that no one wanted, a ghost that was supposed to roam alone. |
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Posted 2024-11-08 18:01:49
The canid tried in the past yet so few wolves were willing to even look him in the eye, causing his deepest insecurities to resurface once more. "…I best move around at least…my fur is still wet…" With a soft exhale Drez forced himself to speak once more even if just to himself as he slowly padded his way though the area, inhaling the scent of various herbs as his left, milky blue eye seemed to shine in the sun's rays. His head lowered and ears alert for anything that may come his way. |
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Posted 2024-11-08 18:16:54 (edited)
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Shapeshifter the goldwing #129135 |
Posted 2024-11-09 09:29:25
When the male started to tell her what he had seen from her eyes, Zeljka pulled her ears back until they were one with her white neck scruff. Why was he analyzing her? She couldn't understand and what she didn't understand, it scared her. "Why would you trust an angel doomed to bring nothing but misfortune?" Zeljka whispered looking at the male. She wasn't smiling, but her face didn't show hostility either. Her expression was rather neutral, but no one knew what pain the young female was carrying deep inside of her heart. She listened him telling her about his wants quietly and while she listened, Zeljka started to ponder what her own wants in life would be. The white Borzoi had to admit that she honestly didn't know. She didn't know what she would want or what she was even allowed to get. In Zeljka's book she didn't deserve anything, that was what had been taught to her since the very young age and due to it she didn't even know how to ask for something or want anything. Zeljka observed the male silently as he fell asleep and decided to wait just a bit longer. After she was sure that he was truly sleeping deeply, she crawled out of the bush making sure to move as quietly as she possibly could, careful of not making even the most faintest sound. Once she had gotten free from the bush, Zeljka bolted. She allowed adrenaline fill her every muscle and cell as her paws beat the ground softly. For anyone who might have seen her, it would be clear that the female was born to run. Her body held both strength and endurance as well as agility and speed causing her running seem effortless, meanwhile the dog herself seemed almost weightless. Zeljka didn't know where she was running and at this point she didn't even care. All she knew was that running was what truly brought her freedom. She had always loved the feeling of the wind playing with her long fur and she had to admit that she had truly missed the feeling of for once being truly free. Running made one to easily forget their worries and brought peace for the troubled mind. She could run for hours, if nothing stopped her and that was her wish. Run on the fields and through the forests allowing her paws to take her wherever they wanted to take her. However, unknown to Zeljka, she was heading right towards the scent that she had found rather interesting earlier. The female was too focused on enjoying her rare moment of freedom to truly notice that. |
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